Alone again

Driving, tears streamming down my face.
Why do I feel like this?
Is this really such a big deal?
Yes, I love him. Yes, I miss him.
But he is not so far away.
Black thoughts drown me...

Can I do this on my own?
He has always been my rock, my foundation.
Now, alone, I must try to face it.
I am surrounded by self doubt, anxiety.
I don't know what to do,
Where to turn.

There were times
When I wanted to be alone,
When I couldn't handle it anymore.
Sometimes love is difficult.
But, they always say,
be careful what you wish for.