Happy New Year to everyone! The new year - a time of beginnings and second chances. A time to improve upon what we did the year before. A chance to go one step further and make ourselves better people.
Back in ICU again. Was worried about it. Was worried that I would forget, that I wouldn't know how to deal with stuff, was worried that I would suck. Well, a new year, a new rotation, a new found confidence. It is like I never left the unit. The nurses still remember me and trust me. None of the questions that the attendings ask me come as a surprise. I know a lot more this time around, and have a better educated guess on the stuff I don't. I am really starting to "get" ICU. It is too bad that I have decided I don't want to do a fellowship in this. I really like it. Well, at least it won't be a wasted two months in Internal Medicine. God, I really hate that. So glad I decided to do what I am doing.
The new year is a new beginning, but also brings us closer to endings as well. We are that much closer to Jurgen writing his exams and being done his residency. We are that much closer for the same for me. With that knowledge comes the fear of not knowing enough, the panic.... Does that feeling
ever end?! You would think that after 11.5 years of post-secondary education I would finally have a handle on that stuff. Well, I guess fear is the only thing that has ever really motivated me. Might as well use it. It has worked so far.
So, here is to the new year. New beginnings, new work, new accomplishments, and even new endings. If there wasn't anything "new" life would be pretty boring afterall.
