A Beautiful Week

I can't help but be sad. Jurgen just got in his car and drove to Regina after having been here for an entire week. It was great, like he had never left. We did all the normal things that I used to take for granted - sleep in the same bed together, discuss our days at work, watch TV together. It was nice that everyone wanted to see him and spend time with the both of us. I love to socialize, and I love to go out to eat, so that worked out. I just really wish it could have been longer. I wish we didn't have to do this. I wish this next 21 months was over. I wish....
Thank God for my two little girls. As much as they have been driving me crazy lately with their fighting and hissing, I couldn't do this without them. I told Jurgen to take them for the week, but now I am glad he didn't. Right after he left I felt sad, went upstairs and cried. Stupe must have known how I was feeling. She cuddled up next to me, purring, and gave me kisses. It helped to pet her, helped to know she was there, helped to feel loved and not alone.
Well, I only have one more month to get through before I am in Regina for two whole months. It will be so nice to get out of here for a while. I am so sick of some of the people and politics here. The further along I get and the more involved I become, the more I realize just why Jurgen felt he needed to leave. The atmosphere here is so unhealthy. Regina will be a welcome break.

Turning 30

Well, my 30th birthday has come and gone. How do I feel? Not really much different. I was pretty blasse about the whole thing. I had a great day filled with flowers, well wishes, great dinner, and even greater company. Then a second evening of great company and another wonderful meal. Who could ask for more?

What will this year bring? Well, it will bring me one step closer to realizing my dream of becoming a full fledged Anesthesiologist. It will bring me one step closer to living in the same city (full time) with my husband. It will bring me one step closer to GETTING ON WITH MY LIFE! It should be a year full of fun adventures, and not so fun ones, of education and knowledge, of realizations. Better than my 20s? Oh yeah. Not so scatterbrained (although, still a little bit, or that just wouldn't be me), not so "lost" - Clear in what I want, what I need to work towards, and the type of person I want to be.

The future will not all be fun and games and rose coloured glasses. It will be every bit as much of an emotional rollercoaster as it has been in the past. So, come on and ENJOY THE RIDE!!

Another milestone in the count down

I have finished one more thing in the two years of countdowns! Another milestone is completed, another hoop jumped. I had my Grand Rounds presentation of the year, and the LAST one of my residency. I spoke on Prions (Mad cow's disease and Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease). Everyone thought it went well, and I am glad. Glad it is over! Man, that was a lot of work, and a lot of worry! Now the only things left are a couple of presentations and my Journal Club presentation in January. No problem!

This Friday two other good things happen: First, it is my birthday. Unlike some of my friends who have already turned the big 3-0, I am excited. I am SO sick of people saying, "you are too young to be a doctor" and "you don't look old enough to be a doctor". What do they know? Now, I can say, "well, I am thirty, is that old enough?" And for any of you who actually read this and wonder what I would like... Well, world peace of course. But I would also like an outpouring of love and well wishes, and a nice meal with my husband.

Second, speaking of Jurgen, He comes on Friday (my birthday) for a whole WEEK! I am so happy. It will really be nice to have him around for a bit, and not have to drive to silly regina. He is working at the Surgicentre, so still makeing money, but definately not the same amount as he would at home. Let me tell you, that is a sacrifice for my husband. He has the "Regina attitude" - Work hard, Make money!! One of us will have to, and it won't be me, so GO JURGEN!