Blog 100

This is my 100th blog. Wow. It amazes me to look back at my life and see where I have been.

I have recently joined "Facebook". I still can't say as I really understand what it is exactly, but it has been fun (although a definate timesuck). I have managed to reconnect with people I have not spoken to in years. It is funny when people ask you "what are you doing". I have trouble with that question because I feel like my life hasn't changed - I am still a resident (although almost into my final year), I still live in Saskatoon (although that feels part-time now), I am still in Anesthesiology (that one won't change), I am still married to Jurgen (I don't want that one to change), I still have two gorgeous cats (I don't want that one to change, either). It feels boring to answer the question with the same old stuff, but I guess if you haven't spoken to me in years, it is all new. Also, if you look back at my blogs, it is clear that my life is ever changing full of ups and downs. It is just the big stuff that doesn't change.

I have decided to try a few life-changing outlooks in my life. First, I am going to try to not be so self-deprecating. It is defeating, and self-fulfilling, and damaging. Not good. Other people believe in me (my Program Director even called me "stellar" the other day!), so why can't I?! Second, I am going to have an open mind. I am really going to try to learn from all of my attendings. Why do they want me to do things a certain way? Do they have a reason? Can I encoroporate this into my practice? Finally, I am going to try to be happy. Yeah, just that. No more getting sad about things I can not change, or angry about things I cannot control. That should all be simple to do, right?

Well, here is to 100 thoughts, feelings, and blogs. Here is to new outlooks. Here is to great friends found on Facebook. Here is to love, laughter, and life. Here is to marriage, friends, and family. Here is to my husband (I don't give him nearly enough credit).

Cheers.