Reality check

My last blog was very postitive. Perhaps too much so. I was censoring what I was really fearing and thinking.
Dad did not do as well as hoped. There was a complication. Dad has had a stroke. We don't know when it happened, or what the actual cause was, but that is reality.
The hardest thing you will ever have to do in your life is to watch your parents suffer. Watching my father not be able to move his right side, being confused, and unable to talk to us was the worst thing ever.
Since yesturday, however, we have seen some improvements. Baby steps.
Being sad is draining. Maybe soon I won't have tears left to cry.