Blogger psychosis

Haven't blogged in awhile. As I said before, I have discovered "Facebook". It is much more about sharing, posting, viewing, and searching. It fills some kind of void, but it does not have the same purpose as my blog. My blog is an on-line diary, and anyone who has read it knows that I treat it as just that. I have expressed all of my feelings here, my inner secrets and fears. People who don't have a blog, I guess, don't understand that. I have always been an open book. What you see is what you get. So really, this is just an extension of that. I have been surprised, then when people almost feel guilty (or do!) reading this.

A friend came up to me the other day and said that she had found my blog. She touched my shoulder in a tender fashion, looking almost sadly at me. That was all she said, but it felt like she thought I had some kind of psychosis because of this. Some emotional disturbia, if you will.

I guess things have to be really powerful for me to want to take the time to write it down. Either really scary, really exciting, really maddening, or really sad. Otherwise, why bother? But isn't that what a diary is for? This is the venue that you can say whatever you want. Vent, get it all out. Admittedly, it is a public forum, so you wouldn't want to incriminate anyone, but you can still get out your feelings.

In a way, I think it is funny. I still sensor a lot of what I write. I don't write as much or as often as some of my other friends (and I love them for it). I felt like saying to my friend, you should see their's! It is my friends who have always shared my fondness for the arts and expression that blog. My science friends feel like they have violated my privacy by reading my blog. Just a different way of looking at things, I guess. Still funny.

So, to all of you with guilt: If I didn't think you should read this, it wouldn't be on the internet! Also, maybe I do have a psychosis (my husband thinks I do!), but as long as I am not going out and killing 12 people in a 7-11, this is the best thing for it. Just think, with this year, it is only going to get worse. Look out world - the blogger psychosis increases!!