study woes

I am starting to feel very alone, and lost with this whole process. I feel like I am barely above water, always on the verge of drowning. And so, I look for support. I look to those who are going through the same woes - my colleagues. Sure, my friends in other specialties are good to talk to, but we are all a bit different. I need someone who really understands. Unfortunately, I am not connecting with the people in my year. We have different ideas on how to study, and what is useful. Am I surprised? Well, I guess only a little. We are all different people, and so that makes sense, but I thought we would band together and help each other out. I hear of other groups who divide up the work and meet regularly, who help share the torture. But that is not us. And it hurts. It hurts my ego. I worry that maybe it is just me. That they don't feel like I contribute anything. I also worry that I am not smart enough, or good enough to do this on my own. But, there is no other way. In the end, there is only one person I can truly rely on - me. I have to do this. I have to pass. I have to complete the year. Sure, they do too. But on the day, they won't be there for me to ask, it will just be me.
This time there is only one pair of footprints in the sand, and no one is carrying me....