procrastinating

OK. So, I am procrastinating. I have reached a wall. An "I don't give a F@%*!" wall. I have made almost 60 pages of notes from about 6 texts, and reviewed them once, and I have been through 12 years of questions 3 times. Can I do more? Yes. Do I want to? No. Will I anyway? Unfortunately, yes. I am very sick of this but feel like I couldn't stop now for fear that if I did, THAT few hours would be the reason I didn't pass.

Here is also where my mind is: Do I know everything? No. Can I know everything? No. Am I smarter than all the people writing this, or even as prepared? No. Am I dumber than 5% (or whatever the fail rate is) of the population? No. Am I somewhere in the middle? Most likely. Will I wide the wave of the curve like I always do? Most likely. Can I pass this? Maybe. Is there still a possibility that I could fail? Sure. Will that change what I do? Well, it might make me study for a few more hours yet tonight. Will it change my future? Not totally. All the important things would still happen - I would still move to Regina, I would still stop being a resident, I could still work, I could still get on with my life. Would it still suck? Most definately it would be the most horrible, humiliating experience of my life. Would I survive? Probably.

So, where does that leave us? Realizing that I need to get off my ass and do a couple more hours of studying yet tonight!