Back to "normal"

I haven't posted in a while. I have been very busy with work. You would think, too, that now that Jurgen has passed his exams life can return to normal. For him it has. In fact, it is better. He often doesn't work full days and tonight is his very last night on call as a resident EVER! Things are definately looking up for Dr. Jurgen.
On the other hand, I am feeling overwhelmed again. I think to mysef - how many times am I going to have to feel this way? When will I start to feel competent? When will this feeling of not knowing enough go away? I guess not until you pass your exams, maybe not even then.
I really feel like I need a break. I have been doing a lot of call (I am 1:2 for the next 6 days), as well as moonlighting to try to pay off some of the expenses for our new house, as well as organizing all of the Friday sessions for the whole next year (Man! I didn't realize just how much work that would be), and I am trying to juggle studying and a social life and exercise somewhere in there.
There is, however, an end in sight. Jurgen and I have compromised on a holiday. We are both going to take the first 10 days of July off. We will probably just hang out in Regina and at the lake for the long weekend, but then later in the week we are planning to go to Canmore, Alta, and go whitewater rafting! That should be a blast. Combine that with some shopping in Calgary and I think it will be a fun couple of days. I am really looking forward to that. I am also looking forward to being in Regina for a month with no call.
OK, don't get me wrong. I complain about work and being a resident A LOT. I get that it must suck to read this. I do like my job. Last night on call, one of my patients gave me a hug when she woke up because her anesthetic was so good and she felt 100% better. I like Anesthesia, I don't like being a resident. As I said to the medical students yesturday when they asked if I was happy, You have unhappy periods in EVERY residency in every specialty. I wouldn't/couldn't change what I do. I just want the training part to be over.
My next post I promise will be fun and full of pics from our trip (now that I have figured out how to post pics!)

Cheers.