Random thoughts

I am watching my kitty curled up beside my computer and marvel at how absolutely perfect she is. So soft, so cute, so peaceful. So much better than kids. Yes, this again. The no kids thing. I go round and round trying to decide if I do like/want them. What does that tell me? I am in no way ready. Which is just fine, as I would rather pass my exams than have to worry about that.

Mind games. We all play them. However, I fear them most at work. Is it truely a mind game? A way to freak me out and make me feel bad? Or is it purely my own insecurities? Who can tell?

I feel, as always, the never ending dread of my exams. Now, though, there is something else. Relief. Relief at being in Regina. Knowing that I don't have to drive 5 hours every weekend. That I can use that time to study, and not panic. How sad.

I am running again tomorrow. The "CIBC Run for the Cure". It is only 5km, but definately for a good cause. I convinced Jurgen's mom to run with me. Should be fun.

Concern, Worry, Fear. When will he start to feel better. So tired of watching him go through this and wishing I could make it better. And then resenting him because I have my own problems to deal with. I wish it would end.

I wish a lot of things would end. Especially this whole residency thing. Ah, alas, wishing my life away. I suppose I should just enjoy it. OK, I will settle for endure it.