this time of year

I wonder what it is about this time of year. I just read a friend's blog and was surprised to see my own thoughts and feelings echoed in hers. We have completely different stuff going on in our lives but the end result is the same - a bad funk. A feeling of hopelessness. A feeling of despair. A feeling that everything always ends up in the same depressing place that you never want it to.

I wonder if it is the snow. The fact that it is the end of April and we still have SNOW! That is definately depressing.

I wonder if it is tax time. The fact that it shows us our financial failures for the last year.

I wonder if it is just that we are getting older and we are still in the same place that we were several years ago. A person's 30's are a lot different than their 20's. In your 20's you think that the world owes you something and that you are invincible. In your 30's you realize you owe the world something and that you need to deliver. You realize that you, nor your closest friends and family are not invincible, and bad things happen to good people.

I don't know what it is that makes this time of year suck. It just does.